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these days really do fly by! i just cant keep up! well we didnt do too much this weekend, i wasnt feeling good
(allergies, sinus stuff). maia and jayden played ps2 all day. sometimes i am very glad i bought one of those. i think i stayed up all night playin also after the kids went to bed:) sunday – we were all ready to go to the mud bog but as we were riding down the road i suddenly remembered, i dont remember where it is! crap, we went back home and the kids played and i worked.
so monday nights i have school. after this week, i will be getting out at 8. im still a little upset because i am missing prison break and i just oh so love wentworth miller. yummy!! but thats ok, ill get over it. just as long as my nip/tuck doesnt get interferred with. so im trying to find my cord for my camera so i can load my figgin pics. that sucks. if i dont find it ill have to bring the one from work home.
well we have a girl scout camping trip coming up. it was supposed to be last weekend, but something came up and it got changed to this weekend. it happens to be my daughters 7th birthday. shes just gonna have it at the camp. she was very happy about that. i wish jaden could be there for it, maybe if he doesnt go to his dads he can go. he is still talking all this dad stuff. poor baby, i just gotta squeeze him sometimes and tell him i love him soooo much. both of them will never know how much i love them and that i would do anything for them. sometimes i go about things the wrong way, but its only with their best intentions in my heart. i just want them to have a normal life with a mom and dad as much apart of as possible and sometimes you cant make people do things. sometimes people missinterpret things you do. that sucks, but what can you do. i guess ill just let the slackers be.
so, anyway, i cant believe my first child is turning 7. wow, my baby is growing up! it makes me a little sad cause i just want to do it over again. i want her to be a baby again. she was so cute when she was little but now she doesnt have any baby fat and shes a growing beautiful girl now. she is getting so big and i am sooo proud of her. yes, she tries me, alot, but thats my maia. she is one of a kind . i just feel like i missed so much even though i have been here this whole time. i just want everyday to go so slow cause before i know it she will be grown and i will cry…lol. i mean shes already half way to 15. if the first 7 years went by so fast, im sure the next 7 will be just fast too. uugghhh!! and my baby just turned 4. i tell ya, you people better take a look at whats goin on in your life, and if there are any children, cherish each day like its your last. love them and squeeze them and tell them you love them every day, every moment. ya never know whats gonna happen – from one second to the next.
well i cant believe a week has flown by already! its been a busy one, of course its always busy when your raising two children by yourself 
so, jadens party was great. i ended up getting a great deal, thank you melissa, and jaden and all the other children had a ball!! i kinda felt bad though cause if i had known if was gonna be so cheap i would have invited everyone else, but theres no sense dwelling on it. all that matters is my son had a great day.
so we spent the night over at a friends house for a couple nights. not that it was a mistake, but my children were showing off . they were not really bad, just a little wound up. we had fun after they went to bed though. it was nice. i dont know if ill do it again, atleast not until my children learn how to listen the first time, then again whos does??
my daughters girl scouts started up again this week. every other thursday. it doesnt sound like alot, but when the weeks fly by so fast, it seems like every other day. so i found out that her camping trip that was planned for this weekend, has now been moved to next weekend. well that weekend is my daughters birthday. we decieded that she will have her party during the camp out trip. that ought to be nice, we gave out invites at the last meeting, hopefully it will be a great party!
school is raping me!
two kids in school this year is really gonna hurt me like i have never been hurt! especially with them both in the same school, just a couple years apart. its something new every week. last week it was snack day for my son. this week it was pta, next week is school pictures. yup, its that time already. i knew about pic day since school started but damn, i didnt know the prices were gonna be even higher than last years. jeez -when are they gonna stop! average package is 30 bucks. they should do multiple children discounts or something. then we have after school activities and school supplies and clothes and shoes and the list goes on forever. now, i have to start looking for halloween costumes and then it will be christmas. well im done thinking about that
on a lighter note – nip/tuck has started – yeah!! this is one of my favorite shows ever! also desperate housewives starts on sunday – double yeah!!
ITS MY SONS BIRTHDAY PARTY!! IM SOOO EXCITED!! I CANT WAIT!! HE IS SO EXCITED – HES GONNA HAVE SO MUCH FUN. HE LOVES BIRTHDAYS!! HE MADE ME A CAKE ON MY BIRTHDAY AND HE WAS SO PROUD OF IT. IT WAS SO SWEET. I LOVE DOING THESE THINGS FOR HIM AND MAKING HIM SO HAPPY. ITS THE GREATEST FEELING TO SEE THE HUGE SMILES ON THEIR FACES. ALTHOUGH I DONT LIKE IT WHEN THEY GET A LITTLE OUT OF CONTROL. I IWLL MAKE SURE THAT HE DOES NOT ACT LIKE A FOOL. LOL. I CANT STAND THAT CRAP, AND YOU BETTER BELIEVE I WILL DICIPLINE HIM, IN PUBLIC OR NOT. ANYWAY ITS GONNA BE GREAT… I WILL POST PICS TOMORROW – OH CRAP I GOTTA UNLOAD MY CAMERA AND GET FRESH BATTERIES. CYA
i cannot believe it has been 5 years. wow. it has flown by so fast, yet i still feel like it was just yesterday. i can remember it too. this is a day that will be etched in every persons mind forever. i think the most asked question of the day is “where were you when it happened”. well, i was at work. i was a secretary for a land surveying company and that morning started out no different than any other morning. i remember it was around 830 or so and i was listening to the radio, like i always do, and it was the morning show with mancow. well, he announces that around 9 am hes going to play a prank. so i was eagerly listening, waiting to see what this crazy motherf’er was gonna do this time. so around 852, he says, ” a plane just hit the tower!” and started freakin out and talking about how this plane just hit one of the twin towers. i was thinking, holy shit!, i know hes crazy, but damn, thats just not right! i mean how cruel can you be? well i am thinking this is a prank for like 5 min until a coworker comes from the back of the office and says, “did you hear what happened?” and i say “yeah, are you listening to this shit too?” and he says “no, its on all the stations”, and i think it took me a couple of min to realize what the hell was going on. i immediately called my mother and she confirmed it. later mancow apologized alot and said how crazy it was and stayed on air for the rest of the show and verbalized everything that happened in detail. i am thankful that he did do that as i had no tv or any other means of news. i listened in horror all day, hanging on every word that every announcer said. i rushed home to watch the footage on tv and i dont think i left my room all night. it was the most awful thing i had ever seen. i had just had a horrible miscarraige the month before and i was so worried that my then boyfriend was gonna be shipped off and i had a mass of confusing thoughts about losing him, still wanting a baby boy with him, and my brother, what was gonna happen, if we were gonna be attacked again. i think i felt this confusion for months, maybe years afterward. it still scares me about whats gonna happen next. i cant even begin to imagine what these people went through on this tragic day. i cant imagine what their families, friends, coworkers, etc went through and are still going through now. i want to honor all the people who lost their lives on that tragic day, all the people who risked their lives that day and everyday, defending and protecting our country. it means so much to me that i have a place where i can call home.
WELL TODAY IS MY SONS 4TH BIRTHDAY. HE IS GROWING UP SO FAST. MY BABY IS NOT A BABY ANYMORE. HE HASNT BEEN FOR QUITE A WHILE BUT NOW THAT HES 4 AND HES IN SCHOOL, ITS REALLY SAD. I NEED TO GET IT TOGETHER…LOL. NO WONDER MY MOM ALWAYS WANTED BABIES. OH MY OVARIES HURT. BUT JUST FOR MIN. I REMEMBER THE DAY I HAD HIM SO CLEAR (WELL ALMOST). I CANT BELIEVE IT HAS BEEN 4 YEARS. IM SO HAPPY THAT HE IS GROWING UP TO BE A STRONG, HEALTHY, HANDSOME BOY. HE IS A GREAT SON AND HE MAKES ME HAPPY EVERYDAY. TODAY HE GOT AWAY WITH EVERYTHING. HE DIDNT REALLY DO TOO MUCH BUT WHAT HE WANTED HE GOT. DONT GET ME WRONG HE STILL GOT INTO TROUBLE IF HE WAS BAD, WHICH HE WAS, BUT IT WAS VERY MINOR. SO TONIGHT WE WENT TO THE BOARDWALK AND HE PLAYED THE GAMES AND GOT ICE CREAM AND MY MOM AND BROTHER AND SISTER ENDED UP COMING ALONG AND IT WAS ACTUALLY A VERY NICE NIGHT. HE HAD A GREAT TIME AND WAS OUT OF IT BEFORE WE EVEN GOT HOME. HE IS GONNA SLEEP GOOD TONIGHT. WE ALSO GOT OUR B&W PICS DONE. WE HAVE BEEN DOING THIS FOR 5 YEARS NOW AND I AM SO GLAD THAT I STARTED IT. I WILL POST A PIC OF THAT
ITS A DAY FOR TEARS BECAUSE ONE YEAR AGO MY GRANDMOTHER PASSED AWAY (REALLY ITS MY EXES GRANDMOTHER, BUT I LOVED HER LIKE MY OWN) SHE WAS I THINK MAYBE THE GREATEST WOMAN I HAVE EVER KNOWN. SHE LOVED ME AND TOOK ME IN BEFORE SHE EVEN REALLY KNEW ME. I MISS HER SO MUCH. SHE TREATED ME LIKE I HAD BEEN APART OF THE FAMILY FOR YEARS. I LOVED TO SIT AND LISTEN TO STORIES THAT SHE WOULD TELL AND ALTHOUGH I DIDNT GET TO SPEND ALOT OF TIME WITH HER, ITS JUST THE LITTLE THINGS THAT STAND OUT. I CAN REMEMBER JUST THE WAY SHE LOOKED AT ME OR THE LITTLE THINGS SHE WOULD SAY OR HER SMILE AND ITS LIKE THATS ALL YOU NEED. SHE WAS A VERY SPECIAL WOMAN THAT I WILL NEVER FORGET AND I FEEL SO BLESSED TO HAVE KNOWN HER. I STILL REMEMBER MY LAST CONVERSATION WITH HER IN THE HOSPITAL. I WAS AT WORK AND I WAS TRYING SO HARD TO KEEP IT TOGETHER SO SHE WOULDNT KNOW I WAS CRYING MY EYES OUT. THEN A COUPLE DAYS LATER I WAS STANDING AT HER BED A COUPLE HOURS BEFORE SHE DIED. I DONT THINK I HAVE EVER CRIED THAT MUCH IN MY LIFE. I HAVE TO GO SEE POP POP BUT I HAVENT BEEN TO THEIR HOUSE SINCE AND IT KINDA WORRIES ME. I DONT KNOW HOW I WILL DO AND I DONT WANT TO UPSET ANYONE. I REALLY MISS THAT SIDE OF THE FAMILY. I LOVE THEM LIKE MY OWN. I WILL HAVE TO LOOK FOR SOME PICS TO POST. I THINK I KNOW WHERE A GOOD ONE IS. I LOVE YOU MOM MOM BRITTINGHAM!!
well tomorrrow is my sons bday. he is turning 4. today, his birthday card came in the mail from his great grandmother. since we were going to salisbury anyway, i deceided, that we would stop by walmart. he was so excited to pick out a birthday present. while we were looking at the toys he yells that he has to go pee. so i say ok, ok, and off to the bathrooms we go. well walmart has those nifty “family” bathrooms, so me and my son head in there. he does his business and goes to wash his hands. he squirts some soap and then turns on the water and sticks his hands under. well he must have turned the water on hard cause as soon as it hit his hands it splashed up in his eye along with a glob of handsoap. my poor baby!! he was screaming and crying for atleast 15 min. i felt sooo bad. he wouldnt let me look at it, so i just held him until his tears washed it clean. it was so sad. he was so upset. you should have heard all the things coming out of this little boys mouth. first he wanted to go to a “real” doctor and let him look at it and give him a new eye. then he said all the people were gonna think his eye is ugly. then he said his brain was stupid, stupid and ugly. i dont know where he comes up with this stuff. i just reassure him and try not to laugh. poor kid.
seriously. i was laying in bed with him so he could fall asleep and he tells me that he wishes his dad was at his house. for a long while. he wished his dad stayed with him and he had him all to himself. he says “some daddies marry mommies” and i said “yes, they do”. i had to get up and leave before i started crying. my poor baby. for a three year old to say something like this really makes me sad. i dont know what to do. i dont want to find a father for my children, although i kinda do. i dont wanna go scoping out prospective dads for my children. that just seems so, i dont even know how ot explain it. i just know that it kills me sometimes. it really hurts me that i cant give them that part that they need. no matter how much i give them i cant fill that void. i hate having them suffer cause im not “ready”. although sometimes i think that i am but then i think about things and i dont feel that i am. i am soooo confused. hes always talking about going fishing, and wanting to wrestle and play and i try to do as much as i can but i cant be a “daddy” as much as i try.
on a lighter note, my kids had a great first day of school. it was actually yesterday, but we wont go there. my son was sooo excited to ride the bus. he is such a sweet boy. i love my children more than words could ever express. they are my heart, my life, just my everything. i dont know what i would do without them.
well heres a few pics of the most adorable kids
OR ACTUALLY I SHOULD SAY WHAT A WEEK!!! IT HAS BEEN CRAZY AROUND HERE! SO, I SHOULD THANK MY GOOD FRIEND ERNESTO FOR RAININ ON MY PARADE. FRIDAY NIGHT ON MY WAY HOME MY DEAR FRIEND LEFT A DETOUR. THAT WOULDNT OF BEEN TOO BAD BUT I HAD NO GAS IN MY CAR. I DID NOT THINK I WAS GONNA MAKE IT HOME CAUSE I HAD NO IDEA WHERE I WAS GOING. THE ONLY WAY I MADE IT HOME WAS TO FOLLOW THE MAN BEHIND ME WHO WAS GOING THE SAME WAY. SO ANYWAY, THERE WERE BRANCHES, ETC AND LEAVES EVERYWHERE!! THE WIND WAS BLOWING SO HARD. SO WHEN I FINALLY GOT HOME THERE WAS NO ELECTRIC. I WENT TO THE NEIGHBORS AND THEY SAID THAT THEY HAD NO IDEA WHEN IT WAS GONNA BE ON. I DEBATED FOR A LITTLE BIT, THEN DECIEDED TO GO TO THE GAS STATION AND THEN OVER TO MY MOMS. I ENDED UP STAYIN THE NIGHT AND CAME HOME SAT MORN TO GET A FEW THINGS. IT WAS THEN THAT I WAS TOLD OUR PROJECTED DATE FOR ELECTRIC WAS TUESDAY. I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE. ANYWAY, ON SUNDAY WHEN I CAME BACK BY IT WAS ON. I WAS SO HAPPY I COULD HAVE CALLED DELMARVA POWER AND THANKED THEM PERSONALLY. SO NOW I HAVE TO GO SCHOOL SHOPPING AND CLEAN MY HOUSE AND SORT THEIR CLOTHES AND DO FOUR DAYS OF WORK IN TWO. I HAD EVERYTHING PLANNED OUT FOR A 3 DAY WEEKEND AND NOW IT WAS ALL BLOWN TO HELL. WELL SINCE I AM SUPER WOMAN I GOT IT DONE AND MANAGED TO GO TO WORK FOR A FEW HOURS. ITS BEEN A CRAZY FEW DAYS. I PLAYED SAHM TODAY….I DONT THINK I GOT ANYTHING DONE. I HAD SO MUCH RUNNIN TO DO – WHERE DOES THE TIME GO? THERE ARE NOT ENOUGH HOURS IN THE DAY FOR ME…….
WELL HERES A PIC OF WHAT THE STORM DID -
